No more fighting, quarreling, etc.

But not much people actually knows how my life has been until today.

Yes, i do agree that being the only child, u're being pampered, always getting the gd stuff

but, i dont know why i still feel so unhappy & lonely.

I dun go out on family days like most of my friends. Dad working almost 7 days a week, Mum has her own art work and household chores to do. Seems like there's totally no room for hanging out =(

Well, that's what happen at home.

In my NS life, most of the time i will be smiling and seldom will i pull a long face. If i really do pull a long face, it must be due to fatigue =X which is a gd thg i guess

However, i don usually hang out with my friends, regardless whether they are Poly friends, Sec Sch friends, Ns friends. I duno why ! Mayb i am jus too used to being alone ? Or i jus dun share the same interest as them ?

Hence, i owas go out alone, go to the same usual place i owas visit. Its pretty boring i know, but i can't seem to find friends to go out wif =X

Sometimes, its hard being a friend too. When i tried help, turns out that i'm the one that needs help sometimes. Its kinda embarrassing. =X And when i do help out, turns out that i hav to keep helping them, which is kinda tiring for me =( My mum likes to help pple when they are in need of help too ! i guess i inherited from her ? =X

Relationship,

most of my past r/s lasted at least a few months, 2 of them lasted more than a yr. actually i had 5 r/s in total. Some were memorable, some are jus hurtful. And i realised that all my r/s ended in the same way. "For another guy".

i'm single for more than a yr, but i hav yet to meet my mrs right. mayb its due to NS ? or mayb its my character ?

In short, i think i'm a lonely guy, with not much family time, not sociable, a not so great Bf in the past. =X

lolz, i apologised for this emo post. but i jus wanna let my feelings out =)

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